Today's weigh-in. Will i haft to turn to smokes?

    So i weighed in this morning and gained friggin 1.4 pounds!
I'm so angry at myself. I'm probably going to stay online all day as a distraction from food. I know, i won't go near the kitchen! It's times like these i which i had a little bit of OCD in me. Weight loss would be so much easier. Soooooo angry >.<

Today, i'll have nothing but water and oatmeal. I don't eat any earlier than 1pm (3pm on school days) and i don't eat any later than 6.

Also, i've been thinking about starting a smoking habit to reduce my appetite. The problem there is i'm too scared of the health risks that i'll be facing in the future and the addiction that in the end, i wont think was worth it. A logical person would think, "Hey weight loss, health problems, and a horrible addiction or choosing something else like a diet? I'd choose something else"

besides, Idk if anyone else has noticed but there are a lot of thinspo that include smoking. its almost like their advertising it. "Wanna get thin like me? Smoke."

Now there are other options like smokeless tobacco (i would only do snus, or nicotine candy)

But i don't know if these would have the same affect as a cigarette would because its not just the niccotine that curbs the appetite, its the mental fixation and the smoke that makes food less interesting. 

Now, if its an addiction that i don't want but the smoke i do, i could just go for herbal cigarettes

But they are so hard to find in store and i have no card or anything to get them online. With the snus and candy, i would at least be able to get my neighborhood drunk to go out and get them for me w/ a little cash on the side (Know what i'm sayin' XD) since i'm still a minor (I'm 17).

This is such a hard topic, i'd rather do these herbal cigs though because even with the candy, i wouldn't want to become dependent on them for the rest of my life even though the back of my mind is telling it'll be worth it.  (Room for motivational pic =])

The reason why i'm so bent on smoking or nicotine (More in the favor of smoking) is because i know it'll work and i wont fail with it. I guess i'll compromise

Any diet pills that actually work and wont be a waste of my non-existent money?
OTC would be perfect. I think i'm going to give the pills a go first, then go to the herbal cigs/nic candy. If i get desperate, i'll turn to good old fashion cigs. I know breaking the habit is going to be SUPER hard and will leave a "Gotta have one" scar on me way long after i quit, but i'll try to stop before i become a pack-a-day smoker. (I say that now lol)